SUMMER :) this song does it for me. memories :)
Two Decades Down
Today, on my twentieth birthday, I say goodbye to my teenage years. Okay, so while it’s not a big deal to some, I’m super sentimental and this is SO SAD to me! I’ve been a teenager for so long… and now I’m just. not. How strange. Anyways, I wanted to reflect on those years, now, when I remember them pretty clearly.
I moved to Marshfield when I was twelve years old. I began my teenage years in Wisconsin, and am now ending them at the University of Wisconsin. So much has changed. I made many, dear, and genuine best friends. My life consisted of Columbus, best friends, volleyball, Columbus, mom&dad, One Tree Hill, home, school, friends, Buddy, volleyball, Columbus, babcia i jaja, Madison, glee, and studying. Middle school and high school at Columbus was the absolute best. That place will always feel like home to me. I probably spent more time in those limited halls than I ever did at my actual home. I met some of the best friends a girl could have. Megan, Victoria, Molly, Devin.. and then Kayla, Collin, Brian, Greg, Tyler, David, Abby, Mike, Kylie, Matt… I love them all and always will for those memories we made. We’ve all had some fights, some that destroyed us and some that made us stronger. Devin and I had four major break ups (we just recently discussed this), but I’m SO happy that we’ve gotten past them. A fight with a BEST friend hurts so badly, even if you try to ignore it and act like everything’s okay and you’re just fine. BUT it’s okay. We’re closer than ever now. :)
Don’t get me wrong, my teenage years wasn’t just all fun, games, and the occasional dramatic fight. There was heartbreak too. Every time mama left for a new place for her job, the rollercoaster that was that boy, when dad got into that accident at work right before that physics exam.. it’s life. It happens. I think I’ve gotten through all the petty drama, the accidents, the heartache pretty well. I’m always the most logical when giving advice to others, but it’s always a harder task following it myself. But I think I’ve done pretty well, in retrospect.
At eighteen, I left the comfort of home, of mom and dad, of my baby boy, of Columbus and my best friends. I entered into Madison, back into thousands of new people and culture! I really missed that in Marshfield. I’m a city girl, after all! Let’s be honest, freshman year, Madison kicked my butt. I managed alright, but I never expected it to be this hard! So, so hard. I’ve always been so used to being one of the smarter people in school, never having to really try. Well, in Madison, every single person here was in that situation in high school. Also, there’s a lot of legitimate geniuses. They scare me. Thankfully, I’ve learned to roll with punches, and am now doing so very well in my fourth semester here! and have I mentioned that I LOVE IT? well, I do. So much. It challenges me daily, academically and physically. I walk everrrywhere. And the people! I’ve met such amazing people while being here! I love my friends, my roommates, my house, my neighborhood, the lake, state street, the buildings.. I just love it all. Best decision ever. I’m still a bio major, possibly looking to graduate early with either a double major or a minor in global health! Still looking to medical school, but we’ll see! I’m honestly just focused on getting my 4.0’s and graduating from Madison.. I mean. That is quite a feat! I’ll be so happy if I can accomplish that.
If the teenage years were the decade of dreaming and planning, now it’s onto the decade of doing. My twenties will be the time of fulfilling all of those goals and plans made for the future. The actual time to start living out my path in life. When you’re a teen, you pretty much do what society/your parents allow you to. Now, as you get older, it’s all on you. I’ll graduate college, get into grad school sommmewhere, and live out my career. Only God really knows where I’ll end up, but here’s hoping for New York! This will be the decade where I, hopefully, find the boy I’m supposed to spend my life with, get married, be a bridezilla, and have babies! I know what I want..and it’s Cory Monteith. :)but really, as fantastic as that would be, I’m definitely open to possibilities! I’m so excited for this decade, even though I will only be getting older and older. So many new things to experience yet! & being older gives me the chance for so many more opportunities :)
So.. goodbye, teenage years! You were great, really. I’ll remember you fondly! Your experiences, people, and moments have molded me into who I am today. Now, it’s time to grab life by reins and see what happens. I’ve dreamt big, and now I can’t wait for the ride!







